Monday, October 8, 2012

In which I procrastinate

I'm sorry. I didn't mean to worry everyone. I am ok, just busy. I spend a lot of time at my work, and I've begun to go back to school. Just two classes, and one of them is a one credit study skills thing. but it's kept me preoccupied.

I am going to take a minute to gush about my job for a minute. Toy stores are so much better than resturaunts, they're less hectic and less people yell at you. I usually stay in the art supplies section, given that I don't know how I feel about being with children. Which means that I get to hang out with Norma a lot.

Norma's the mother of the owner Cassie. She's like seventy or something and reminds me a lot of Maude from Harold and Maude. We sometimes make up songs based off of people's purchases for the day. Sometimes we can get Cassie to join in, but mostly she just rolls her eyes. Not that she's a bad person. She totally isn't, and she's pretty much the best boss ever. Tough but in that totally reasonable kinda way. She's just very... serious. And there's a sadness to her that makes me want to hug her.

By now you're probably wondering why I'm spending time talking about my job and such, when the last time I posted I was all hunting down evil cults and so on. Well, I'm still doing that... it's just.

This is part of why I didn't post for so long. I didn't want to admit this. I already feel like I let people down, and telling the people who read my blog about it just adds more people to the list. But the urge to write has come again, and I couldn't go on without talking about what happened.

I was too late.

The school by my house burned down. sixteen children died, twenty-three injured. And I wasn't even doing anything important when it happened. I was asleep.

So now I'm at work, or at school, or looking for answers. I don't like sitting still, because then I think of those sixteen dead children I let down. And I really didn't want to come here and tell you all that story. I couldn't help them. And it's tearing me apart.

Even worse, I can't find Lazarus. At all. Which means that in many ways, my investigation is at a standstill. I don't know where Atropos will strike next, or if they're even in DC still. I'm just stumbling around in the dark.

So this is terrible, but I think that part of me just wanted to forget about it. Go on with my life, cut this as a loss and start actually doing things my remission allows me to do. But lately it's been bugging me. My dreams of being in the basement have become more frequent and more vivid. Except now the basement shifts to a school, and I watch tied to a chair as he comes for them.

So... I'm back. For better or for worse.

Saturday, April 14, 2012

In which shit gets real

Right. So...

I'm sort of scared.

Order of the Solar Temple? Pretty scary stuff. If you want details, there's a wikipedia page. But cliff notes is that they're a cult. From Sweden or France or Canada or something. I know those are three different places but it's been a long day. They are kind of nasty though. Lots of murder/suicides. Often with children.

And there is an awful lot of fire.

I found a blurb on a random website about how there was an american chapter formed, but it's sort of vague. I don't really know what this has to do with anything, but it does not bode well.

If this is the cult that's going to take all these kids...

We're all very very screwed.

Well, good news. I got a job at that toy store. Yay.

I had to have something good to put here.

Monday, April 9, 2012

In which a fed is helpful for once

So, a great deal of nothing has happened. I have been sporadically looking for work. Just as sporadically signing up for school. I would think that my brush with death would make me want to participate more in life. Well, it sort of does, but now I want to go out and explore the world. I don't have as much patience for the boring day to day stuff. And I didn't have that much patience to start with.  I do have a couple interviews, including one at that toy store I went to with Anya. But aside from that, nothing's been going on.

Except for yesterday, when I ran into our favorite federal agent.

I was in Georgetown, having a checkup to make sure that everything was ok. There's a salad place down near there that I like to go to. They serve the salad in awesome wooden bowls and have organic sodas and they're just kind of weird and hippielike. Which I enjoy. So I was hanging out there, and there he was. Right behind me.

Me: What are you doing? Are you following me?
A.F.: No, I'm eating lunch.
Me: So I'm supposed to believe this is just weird coincidence?
A.F: It is weird coincidence.
Me: I'm not buying it.
A.F.: I don't really care if you do. However, since you're here I need to ask you what you've been up to.
Me: I haven't been up to anything.
A.F.: You start talking about how you are researching Atropos on your blog, and then you don't post for several weeks. That's almost always a sign that you're up to something.
Me: You read my blog?
(I might have gotten a bit sputtery here)
Me: No, I just forgot again. Do you know who Atropos is?
A.F.: AJ, you are a unique individual. You are one of the few people who has ever made him go away, even temporarily. People are going to try to use you-
(I sort of interrupted him here)
Me: Including you.
A.F.: Including me. Do you really want to throw yourself into more of that?
Me: Yes. Yes I do.
A.F.: You're going to get in too deep one of these days.
Me: I sort of feel like I already am. But if Lazarus was right, children are going to die. And not entirely because of him. Because of people. You can stop people. Please help me?
(I am never really sure if I'm saying the right thing to him, or if he's going to shoot me in the head in the middle of a salad shop. It's sort of difficult to talk to him, actually. But this time I seemed to be ok. Because he kinda sorta helped.)
A.F.: You're looking in the wrong place. Try the Order of the Solar Temple.

And that's all he would say to me. I tried to talk to him, but he just ate his salad and left. I have a lead though. Which means more research, on top of all the other stuff. yay.

Friday, March 9, 2012

In which I play with bubbles

Yes. Bubbles.

So, since my hair has started to grow back in I've begun to look for a job. It's as infuriating as ever, but I think I'm getting better at it. I mean, I actually have some experience now, and an interesting if emotionally manipulative story to tell. Behold:

Manager: So, tell me why you left your last job.
Me: Oh, they fired me because I didn't come in for a week.
Manager: I see... (disapproving scribbling.)
Me: Of course, I was in the middle of a hostage situation at the time.
Manager: What?
Me: Yeah, I couldn't really call them and tell them I wasn't coming in. They did offer me my job back, but by then I had come down with cancer.
Manager: ...

Much better than the last time, don't you think?

I still take an awful lot of walks. It's something to do, I guess. Yesterday Anya came with me. We ran into a place where a girl was just blowing bubbles out in the street. I have a thing for bubbles. They are shiny and awesome and yet really fragile. Bubbles are badass.

The store ended up being a toy and art supplies store. I've never really heard of somewhere that sells both toys and art supplies, but given Anya was with me it ended up being the most perfect place ever. I got her some nice colored pencils for her drawings, even though they scare the shit out of me.

Anya never really got past the disturbing drawing phase. She's always doing some sort of fairy tale image with tentacles climbing up the pillars or the prince hanging from a tree. I really do worry about her sometimes. But it's a hobby. Gotta support hobbies.

We didn't buy any toys. Instead we went to a nearby McDonald's and bought happy meals. Anya got a transformers toy. I got Pinkie Pie.

Pinkie Pie kicks ass.

Saturday, March 3, 2012

In which I need a hippie van.

I saw my first cherry blossom of the year today. I was taking a walk and there it was, among a bunch of other trees that hadn't bloomed yet. There is still something beautiful and comforting about those trees. Funny that a plant saved my life, but it did. And every once in a while, I just love to see them.

I'll probably be needing that boost, too. I've been trying to look for this mysterious Atropos person. So far nothing. At this point I might have to actually talk to Lazarus. Oh please whatever deity exists, don't make me do that.

I did manage to google Atropos though. It's a fate! She's one of three sisters who determine the fate of mankind (and the gods maybe? It got confusing). Atropos is the one who cuts the thread of life. Which sort of means that she's the person who kills everybody.

That's a cheery image.

At the very least, I am probably looking for a girl. Because girls might take the names of male mythical figures, it doesn't usually happen the other way around.

I feel like a detective now.

All I need to do is keep Anya out of this. She has been asking me questions, and I think she suspects something. I really don't want to pull her into this again.

Though that might be because I doubt I'd be able to save her this time.

Sunday, February 19, 2012

In which I am not dead

I sort of feel bad about leaving you without notice, since that's actually a possibility. At least it was. Guess what guys?


I have never been so happy about 'it probably won't come back. maybe' but I am now. Even though I am pretty sure it will come back. Because this isn't exactly natural causes is it? I'm still thrilled though. I had a bit of a chance to be all normal and stuff. Which was amazing.

Actually, I probably would have abandoned you guys. Sorry. I mean it. The thing is, something happened, and once again this is the only place I can properly talk about it.

I saw Lazarus.

I was taking a walk by my house, and there he was outside the playground. I'm sort of suprised no one called the police on account of him being a creeper. Because he was just standing there, watching the kids. I seriously thought about just leaving him alone. But I didn't. Sort of regret that now.

And now we shall return to a timeless format!

Lazarus: AJ, well isn't this a surprise.
Me: You're a block from my house. Which you know. Didn't you promise me that we wouldn't meet again?
Lazarus: There was a moment of weakness on my part. However, I am not here because of you.
(he looks over at the kids for a moment.) How is your own battle going?
Me: Remission.
Lazarus: That's good to hear.
Me: So which kid are you here to 'protect'?
Lazarus: All of them.
(I think I just sort of stared at him for a minute)
Lazarus: He'll pick a few that he considers his, of course. But one way or another, all of those children are going to be trapped somewhere. And then he'll come.
Me: What makes you think this?
Lazarus: I've seen it before. I know what to look for. Of course, at this point I'm far too outnumbered. I don't know how to stop this.
Me: Wait. People are doing this? Who?
Lazarus: Atropos.
Me: Who's that?
Lazarus: I like your new coat. It's very nice.

Then he left. I hate him. I hate him so much.

What I think I hate most of all is that for some stupid reason, I can't just let that be it.

Which Lazarus probably knew.

I hate him.